writing check-in
Jul. 14th, 2020 09:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hereinevitablythe last time i did one of these was at the very end of 2019, so i figured that it would be a good time to take a step back on what's happened so far this year! now. where to even begin? everything's been moving so fast...
first of all, at the time of writing this i have thirteen published works on ao3! that fact alone is absolutely insane to me, especially when considering that before this i had never finished a single work. oh, if middle school ash could see me now. even if there are some works that i'm less proud of than others (quite a few that i would rewrite if given time in a heartbeat...), it's still really cool to think about how far i've come in such a short time? is half a year (ish) since my last reflection post short? hmm...nonetheless i do think that i've improved a lot!
my thing of very aggressively sticking to any sort of ritual i create, be it accidentally or not, has worked out in my favor in this case as kicking my ass into posting monthly means that i write far more consistently than i used to TT which is not saying too too much but it's better than before! baby steps and whatnot? a lot of my fics are just things that i start impulsivelywhen i want to avoid another deadline and happen to like enough to develop into a quick 1k-2k fic, but once again! baby steps. i've also gotten into joining (perhaps a few too many) fic fests and not dropping out of them which is quite cool!
i think that one of the biggest influences on my development as a writer has got to be the entire boys playing god / unhinged nahyuck exchange. it was just...really good in so many aspects! having the ability to write something both self-indulgent and gifted to others, feeling like i have a place in the ficdom (as niche as it might be), getting a chance to really dive into a genre that suits my strengths, and receiving incredible feedback on everything i posted...all of it was just so helpful in hammering out parts of my style as well as building confidence in my work. dusolocthui, if any of you ever see this, thank you from the bottom of my heart!
and...that's another thing that i feel like was plaguing me a bit last year...feeling like i'm not a 'proper' fic writer? perhaps it is the fact that i have far more works under my belt—including an 11k—as well as know a lot more writers now, but i'm pretty sure i have successfully gotten over that! it's been...almost a year now since i posted my first fic, holy shit?
what else...ahh i'm sure there's always more to say but i will cut it off here for now! otherwise this may never get posted...if i have more thoughts later i'll probably make an edit to this post @_____@
first of all, at the time of writing this i have thirteen published works on ao3! that fact alone is absolutely insane to me, especially when considering that before this i had never finished a single work. oh, if middle school ash could see me now. even if there are some works that i'm less proud of than others (quite a few that i would rewrite if given time in a heartbeat...), it's still really cool to think about how far i've come in such a short time? is half a year (ish) since my last reflection post short? hmm...nonetheless i do think that i've improved a lot!
my thing of very aggressively sticking to any sort of ritual i create, be it accidentally or not, has worked out in my favor in this case as kicking my ass into posting monthly means that i write far more consistently than i used to TT which is not saying too too much but it's better than before! baby steps and whatnot? a lot of my fics are just things that i start impulsively
i think that one of the biggest influences on my development as a writer has got to be the entire boys playing god / unhinged nahyuck exchange. it was just...really good in so many aspects! having the ability to write something both self-indulgent and gifted to others, feeling like i have a place in the ficdom (as niche as it might be), getting a chance to really dive into a genre that suits my strengths, and receiving incredible feedback on everything i posted...all of it was just so helpful in hammering out parts of my style as well as building confidence in my work. dusolocthui, if any of you ever see this, thank you from the bottom of my heart!
and...that's another thing that i feel like was plaguing me a bit last year...feeling like i'm not a 'proper' fic writer? perhaps it is the fact that i have far more works under my belt—including an 11k—as well as know a lot more writers now, but i'm pretty sure i have successfully gotten over that! it's been...almost a year now since i posted my first fic, holy shit?
what else...ahh i'm sure there's always more to say but i will cut it off here for now! otherwise this may never get posted...if i have more thoughts later i'll probably make an edit to this post @_____@
